I Want To Hurt Myself? Already On Anti-Depressants? Help Me Please...?

Hi sweetie, i am not sure how old you are but you have to start loving yourself. Is there any activities you enjoy maybe drawing something that brings out your potential. It sounds like bipolar disorder to me. You sound like you feel unappreciated too. Now try this find something you like doing and do it everyday. Try smiling more and loving yourself for who you are. You are not bad, you are great try waking up every morning and look in the mirror and look at yourself and say today is a great day and do that every day, you will be amazed how it works for how you feel about yourself. I don't like crowds either but i learned to live with it when i have to. You are great and if you feel great other people around you do to. Your family hurts when you are hurting, your dad obviously wants you to be happy. Try not to make up or add to stories, the truth often is never far behind. Be honest and maybe reading and some meditation would be good for you. I recommend it. I wish you all the best and you are very brave for coming out and telling the truth. Good luck you can do it.